Category Archives: The Spiritual Life

Progress on My Interior Life

I read my post on “Communal Repentence,” and was struck by how the Holy Spirit changed me since then.  I wrote that God didn’t want my external sacrifices, but my internal ones.  My interior life had to change, and it has — thank the Holy Spirit!

I pray the rosary every day, now.  I’ll do at least a decade as a part of the Living Rosary group, but I often receive the grace to pray all the mysteries for the day.  My spiritual reading helps me grow.  I’m currently reading “Interior Castle” by St. Teresa of Avila.  The Holy Spirit is opening up my eyes through St. Teresa’s words.

The stress that I felt when I wrote that entry in late-February is now gone.  I find myself taking more time to ask my co-workers how they are doing, and spending time to counsel them if it seems like they needs someone to talk to.

I can’t say that I’m getting holy, but I certainly feel grace.  I can feel my soul open up a little more to God.  My ego still resists, and quite often my human weakness gets the better of me.  I would spend two hours or more watching a TV show or movie on Netflix instead of doing things that are better for me (i.e. praying, reading, practicing taijiquan, or drawing, etc.)  It’s okay.  I need to be gentle and let God do the work.  Awareness of my human weakness is what’s required.  It’ll help me be humble to know that I will fail without the Holy Spirit.

I praise and thank you, Lord, for helping me come back to this journal.  It gives me so much joy to know that You are okay with this.  Thank You for not giving up on Your creatures, even though we actively rebel and disappoint You.  I love you and am grateful for Your mercy.  Please help me continue writing and praying.  Help me be more charitable and more aware of people’s needs.  Give me the strength to act lovingly when I am aware of their needs.  I ask this through Jesus Christ, Your only Son.  Amen.  Glory be…

My Return to Journaling

O Lord, open my lips and my mouth will proclaim your praise!

Lord, thank you.  The Holy Spirit guided me back to this journal.  I left because of laziness and continued my absence because I thought writing a journal like this was a form of self-promotion.  Then you led me to Fr. James Martin’s article on journaling [Give Us This Day, May 2012, page 9 PDF] — I realized that stopping was what the devil wanted.  Glory be to You, Lord, for bringing me to my senses.  Help me do your will.  Let me know if I’m abusing this tool and using it only for self gain.  And, Lord, bless Fr. Martin for his wisdom.  May he continue to bring more souls to You.

Holy Spirit, thank you.  Two nights ago, during prayer, You provided me this bit of wisdom: the cross that I bear is my self-love and self-will crucified.  In contemplation, I see how my self-love and self-will lead me to sin.  I open my soul to You, and the nails are driven deeper.  The pain I suffer will lead me to humility.  The Sacraments on Sundays give me aid, and help me bear my cross.  All this for your greater glory!  Glory be to the Father…